You may be tempted by Mother Mary, especially now that it’s legal.
While experiences vary person to person, I think the jury is still out about whether or not marijuana is a good treatment choice. My own experience, both personally and watching friends, is that the net is neutral. While it can help increase focus and reduce anxiety, it can also stupefy – ultimately replacing the sense of actual accomplishment with the simulated experience of accomplishment. Marijuana makes you feel good and often makes you feel smart, but most times, it doesn’t actually help you do good and be smart.
It makes me think of the oft misattributed quote, Write Drunk. Edit Sober.
My non-medically qualified opinion:
Don’t try to self medicate with cannibus.
If you find that it does calm you, and you’ve been reluctant to try meditation, my own experience is that marijuana was like a flight simulator to the actual taking flight meditation provides. So if you find benefit, maybe the next step is to bring some meditation into your routine. You may think you don’t have time, but there are tools out there for binaural meditation that can help you “cheat” at meditation by getting you into a desired brain state quickly.
If you think you don’t have time for meditation, think about the time it takes to smoke up and come down.
If you can’t put the marijuana down, you may have some deeper struggles that Narcotics Anonymous may be able to help with.